Pschological Embedding (and Bedding 0f classmates)!

So halfway through my first class I'm ready to call it quits. Who am I kidding, I thought, I can't do this school shit 25 years later.

I was taking an APA class, which is the American Psychological Association's version of how one should write scholarly papers. Nitpicky little fuckers are the, APA! I couldn't even follow along with the professor when it came to navigating Microsoft Word for writing such a paper. I felt like I wanted to cancel this plan right then and there; walk into the Admissions Counselors office and just quit, go get a drink, and plan a travel excursion and start looking for jobs in film, radio, bartending....

But then I woke up. I embraced the moment. I realized this was meant to be a challenge. If it were not challenging I would not grow. If it were not to require some mental work on my part I would never grow to be an effective counselor. It's also about my own personal evolution as a being. I can do this. And, I am going to excel like never before. I'm doing it sober!!!! This too shall be a challenge. Embracing the AA program, getting a Master's, working with kids with autism---all challenging shit. And I am grateful for the challenge, for it is my path; my "road less traveled," and I know it is and can be a most beautiful and rewarding path.

I am going to embed myself in the world of Psychology for the next two years. For that I am excited. I was meant to be here, in this very moment, typing this sort of affirmation that this is the path I am gratefully taking. Doors are opening as I type. My mind is expanding; opportunities to live life like never before are being created by my every thought on this subject.

Psychology is freakin' cool. How appropriate that I am so interested in the mind and it's connection to the Divine, and our souls, and our creations, and have been reading so much the past two years about awakening consciousness and Being in the Now and here I am studying another aspect about "what it's all about." I will soon get to open the minds of kids without hope; foster kids, kids in "the system", kids with behavior disorders, kids with autism---just plain kids that are wondering what it's all about.

I think I might also learn a little bit about ME.

And remember, I'm sure I'll find a few sexual partners at school to keep my sex addiction evolving as well. And for that I am grateful.

Peace

Kevin